A stop over on my way home: Péreybère Beach. Why? Because I was pissed off… and sad.
I don’t know why everything is going so wrong, in my life and in the world. I feel like things are slipping off my palm like sand does – the tighter I close my fist to affirm myself, the more it slips away. Any sand-catcher around please? Give me some hope someone.. hope that the world, my life will get better tomorrow.
One: My Life
I’ve got a bestie who broke up because it was a bad relationship. Good thing, she is getting better. Bad thing, I am feeling forced to be with her because she claims she will be tempted to go back to that !@#$@#$ if her mind and time are not occupied. It’s not that I don’t like to spend time with my friends, but.. free time is a luxury for me and stuffs I do which make me feel good do not require company. On top of this, she is making me feel responsible if ever she returns to that guy. I know, I know.. anyone would think how weak I am. I’m stuck because I don’t want her to be suicidal again 😦
Two: The World
I just went through a 5-days’ wedding – a friend. It was all bling-bling, boom-boom, tam-tam and above all, yum-yum! Everyday, every menu was different. But damn, the left-over food? And the events, mostly during November and December.. the open-buffet! OMG. WHAT IF.. if authorised, all hotels and restaurants would have a “Generous Corner” where they would share the left-overs to the poor and homeless? No profit in that, right? But then, the bins also ain’t paying for the foods either..
See, all of this was going in my head. It was already getting dark. I had to leave. Do I feel better? No. Because I am more frustrated as I am still where I started. On the other hand, I think my friend and I will be having a serious talk – not hidden behind a screen, but a serious face to face one. I need to look into people’s eyes to know how meaningful they are.
You who have read all of this, I hope tomorrow you will wake up with the thought of helping a needy in mind. Don’t do it for me. Don’t do it for a status on social networks. Don’t do it to secure a seat in Paradise.
Do it just because.. it will make someone smile – the best contagious disease ever.